Thursday, June 23, 2011

Invictus Manet

You know, when I lost Malcolm I cursed god and was alone. Murphy carried me through that hard sad time in my life. Then god gave me this amazing mission which I could have never undertaken without my beautiful boy by my side. Yesterday I carried Murphy back to god

26 comments:

Emma and Mommy said...

So very sorry for your loss. What a beautiful picture though, it really sums up the emotion and beauty in all you have done.

Jessica said...

You have a beautiful soul and your journey was inspirational. I aspire to inspire others as you did! God bless you!

Laura Mayden said...

A beautiful friendship, a beautiful life, God Bless You Luke Robinson!!!

Rebecca said...

Dear, Luke and family i'm so very sorry about your pain but you 3 did someting that no other person has ever done before Murphy and Malcolm are playing today in heaven and Murphy is all Murphy today no more cancer i'm so glad that i got to meet you and Murphy in BG. my Jared the corgi still talks about how pretty Murphy is. GOD Bless

Rosie Willis Willett said...

Dear Luke,
This is one of my favorite poems. I do not know who the author .
You're giving me a special gift, So sorrowfully endowed, And through these last few cherished days, Your courage makes me proud. But really, love is knowing When your best friend is in pain, And understanding earthly acts Will only be in vain. So looking deep into your eyes, Beyond, into your soul, I see in you the magic, that will Once more make me whole. The strength that you possess, Is why i look to you today, To do this thing that must be done, For it's the only way. That strength is why I've followed you, And chose you as my friend, And why I've loved you all these years... My partner 'til the end. Please, understand just what this gift, You're giving , means to me, It gives me back the strength I've lost, And all my dignity. You take a stand on my behalf, For that is what friends do. And know that what you do is right, For I believe it too. So one last time, I breathe your scent, And through your hand I feel, The courage that's within you, To now grant me this appeal. Cut the leash that holds me here, Dear friend, and let me run, Once more a strong and steady dog, My pain and struggle done. And don't despair my passing, For I won't be far away, Forever here within your heart, And memory I'll stay. I'll be there watching over you, Your ever faithful friend, And in your memories I'll run, ...a young dog once again.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls."
Matthew 28-29
Rest easy Luke and know that you did everything right for Murphy.

Susan said...

I recall meeting you & your dogs on the C&O canal. You were all tired & hot but cheerful. So heartbreaking to carry your dog's familiar body - the smell, the feel, but nothing is there, & memories are racing thru your mind. Years ago, I worked for a vet in prep for vet school. I saw a lot of dogs pts'd. It was always so shockingly fast. They didn't get sleepy & drift off, it was awake, then...whump - the head hits the table. But it was always the right choice, even tho it was hard. It sounds like you timed it right- he was just losing his capacities. It's a sadness that dogs have lives so much shorter than ours, but take some small comfort in the easy death you gave him. No shooting, no whacking with a shovel, & he didn't crawl off alone to suffer & die like a street dog in some third world country. He had an amazing life & you did your best by him.

Tanya McGarry said...

...like you, when I lost my 18yr. old companion (Lakota) I destroyed myself. Watching this journey with Murphy is helping bring me back to a state of grace as Trust gets closer each day to her end with me here.
It's been an inspiring reminder that, like Murphy, Trust was the one helped me get back on my feet and I owe it to her to be her hero... Thank you...

Anonymous said...

unconquerable.

Solitude.Peace said...

You will never be alone. Though I wasn't physically there throughout or during his last moments, I have been there in my heart. Goddamn Luke, my entire core is shredded apart knowing that there was absolutely nothing I could do. I can and always will...and this is my promise to you...be there without reservations. I will never waiver nor will I allow for you to be alone.

Teresa Cash said...

You are not alone this time, Luke. Thousands of people are grieving along with you in the loss of your precious Murphy. We all know Heaven has a bright new shining star. And trust that all of us will be by your side in your future journeys with your sweet boy Hudson. You've captured us, heart and soul.
Teresa Cash
transport driver
Bowling Green, KY

Anonymous said...

Luke,
Murphy will always be with you in your heart. He holds your love until the day you're all reunited just as he left his for you to hold.
The memories of Murphy that you have can never lost.
I keep you in my prayers. I pray you strength, comfort, healing & peace.
HUGS to all.
Georgia

Debbie said...

so sorry for your loss

please know you did the absolute best (and then some) to keep your boy comfortable & happy

not everyone may agree with some of your decisions, but only you know your dog and can say what is or is not best

RIP Murphy, free of pain and illness at the Rainbow Bridge, you are whole again

Debbie

Renee D. said...

sleep you beautiful boy in God's loving arms...

Bobbie: In Memory of Emma and Ozzie(Maremma Sheepdogs who will always remain in our hearts) said...

God bless you and I hope you feel our love surround you. Murphy, along with Malcolm and too many beloved pets, are now in his care. I wish I had known about this journey before recently. I know how you and your family feels. I've been there before.

kgirlmsp said...

I am so, so, so sorry. My heart goes out to you during this time of pain. And painful it is. Ironically, I hadn't opened up my reader in a while, until today for some reason and saw the news about Murphy. It's ironic because my 17 1/2 year old Schipperke, Maxi's, aging body finally won out on Sat. eve when we had to say goodbye. I'm heartbroken. She was my first baby and after pills, supplements, special food, chiro and vet appts, carrying her up and down stairs, I almost welcome all of those things back over the constant aching I feel now.

I found your blog and your story last fall after doing a search on the web upon learning our 10 yo Shepherd mix, Casey, was diagnosed with a bladder tumor. She woke up one day before Thanksgiving, couldn't pee and that was it, we were faced with the most heartbreaking realization that it was time to say goodbye and send her back to God.

So I know, and I feel for you, and I'm so very, very sorry you have had to say goodbye, again. Murphy was blessed to have a dad who gave him the beautiful life that you did. Be good to yourself during your time of grief. Murphy would want that. :) @kgirlmsp

Andréa said...

I'm so short on words right now... but God bless you and Murphy. Thank you what you have done to fight cancer.

Kaj said...

I'm not real into being a "fan-boy" (altho I'm female) so I don't join, I don't friend, I don't do all that other stuff that fans do, but I learned of your walk and began to follow you and the boys in Aug. 2008 shortly after I lost my Bella suddenly, not to cancer, but lost none the less. Murphy reminded me of Bella. So, I know you're hearing it everywhere, but I wanted to tell you I'm sorry for your loss and I know what you feel. Thank you, Luke, for all you have done and continue to do for Pyrs and other dogs everywhere.
Puppy up, Murphy! Tell Bella I love her.
One Love,
Donna, Austin TX.

Scout 'n Freyja said...

Luke, God was right there with you and accepted Murphy into His Grace. My heart bleeds for you because I know your pain and it is immeasurable and it is lonely and it freezes your soul.

Emma Rose said...

I am so saddened, my heart is breaking for you. Please know that you are not alone.

rottrover said...

my thoughts are with you.

Anonymous said...

DEAR LUKE, I HAVE ALSO LOST MY HEART TO CANCER, HER NAME WAS SARA- BUT WE CALLED HER BO BOO, SHE WAS HE FIRST DOG I HAD ALL TO MYSELF, SHE WAS MY LOVE, MY FRIEND MY REASON FOR LIVING. WHEN SHE WAS FIRST DIAGNOSED WITH LYMPHO SARCOMA,WE DID SURERY, I WAS WORKING AS A VET TECH AT THE TIME, 2 SURGERIES LATER, THEY SAID PUT HER DOWN. I PRAYED DEAR GOD PLEASE, PLEASE- SHE LIVED FOR 3 MORE YEARS THEN ADENOCARSANOMA HIT HER AND HARD- SHE LIVED FOR 2 MORE WEEKS WHENI HAD TO MAKE THAT AWFUL DECISON. I NOW YOUR PAIN DEAR MAN. I READ UR COMPLETE BLOG AND CRIED FOR YOU AND MURPHY- WHAT A WONDERFUL FATHER MURPHY WAS BLESSED WITH. YOU AND MURPHY AND HUDSON AND FAMILY ARE IN MY PRAYERS AND LIGHTING A SPECIAL CANDLE JUST FOR HIM. UR LAST PISTURE OF U CRRYING HIM BROKE MY HEART, BUT WHAT A BEAUTIFUL PHOTO... AND DAD AND IS DOG, TAKING THAT LAST WLK TOGETHER. GOD BLESS U, AND FOR YOU DO FOR THE DOGS WITH CANCER. I AM SOOOOOOOOOO SORRY, AND JUST CAN'T STOP SOBBING. REST IN PEACE SWEET MURPHY, FLY ON THE WINGS OF THE ANGELS..... LIZ MATTHEWS

Anonymous said...

So sorry to read this Luke... It's so hard when we have to say goodbye, but you did everything you could for him and I'm sure he knew that too! Murphy will always be with you in your heart and mind! Thinking of you...

FiveSibesMom said...

I am so very sorry for your loss. Tears are spilling down my face at your photo, so full of emotion, love, and sadness. Your boy was beautiful and fought a good fight with you by his side, his champion. May he be free from pain and happily watching over you forever alongside Malcolm from over the Rainbow Bridge.

Christy Hopkins said...

You are both warriors! I can not imagine your grief, but am praying for you all. May you have a peace that surpasses all understanding today, knowing you did everything for your sweet boy and did not waste one moment. . .which is obvious to a total stranger. I find such comfort knowing that Murphy and Malcolm are together, 100% healthy and watching over you. Thank you for having the courage to share such raw emotion. You are truly inspirational! Look forward to meeting you in Denver!

Maxine Cook said...

Luke.....we are so sorry for the loss of Murphy. Keep Huds close and give him lots of love. He will miss his buddy too. You guys are always in our thoughts and hearts. We are honored to have met you, shared with you a trail break in the mountains of Pennsylvania at our farm, and sent you on your path again with sustenance and prayers for your mission. Bless you in your future, Luke. Bless Murphy, sweet-sweet boy for eternity. And bless Hudson, and all the dogs in your future.

Always your friends, Art and Maxine Cook, Jolico Farm, Somerset PA

Anonymous said...

God bless you and Murphy. He lived a wonderful life with you- may you find healing in the love and prayers everyone is sending you and in your memories of your time together.